Unfucking!!

"My life sucks", is pretty much what I think every morning when I wake up. The sudden passing of my father on Halloween has taken me to emotional lows I didn't know existed. I have been so consumed by sadness, darkness and anger that crawling out of bed each morning was a major feat. In the midst of things I said goodbye to my far away job and moved back in with my mom. She needed my support and I sure needed hers. After living away for many years however, melding my new tastes and acquired belongings with my childhood bedroom proved to be a difficult task. My drawers and closets were filled with stuff of the past and there was no room for the new me. So, I started piling and avoiding until I was barely sleeping in my room at all. I was drowning in stuff. Everytime I started to sort I would find a picture of my dad, or one of his sweaters, a note he had written me... and it would stop me in my tracks. I got onto UfYH via a friends post. It took weeks of follwing it to before I actually attempted anything. Mostly things outside of my room to start. Carrying dishes to the sink, tidying the bathroom etc.. Last week however, My mom gifted me a new mattress hoping that it would put an end to my insomnia. The furniture folks were to deliver it the following week and they needed to have a clear path to its new home. So, I had a week to get my crap in order. Taking inspiration from many other before and afters, I did it!! It took a few days, many 20/10's... 45/15's... 20/2hrs..., and several you tubed tiny desk concerts to complete. It's not perfect the dresser tops and desks tops still need attention but 4 goodwill bags later and you can see my floor folks!! And I have a new bed to lie in that I don't have to share with a random pile of shit. Hopefully " UfYH and the tiny desk will help me stay motiviated to keep it up. The before's are from about day 2... it was much much worse to begin. and after...